You are enough

 

It’s amazing just how easy it is for us to become consumed by our own lives. I’m not talking about looking after yourself and your family or being hard at work to getting to that “happy” place. I’m talking about the things that fill up our days – 9-5 jobs, side hustles, church commitments, trying to make time to be creative. And then at the end of it all, you still feel like you just have not done enough.

Since I’ve embarked on this blogging journey, I’ve obviously read a whole lotta blog posts written by people in my city, in my country and across the world. I am amazed at how many people actually struggle their way through life, while having to deal with anxiety, depression, that feeling of being “not enough”.

My heart literally aches while thinking about them right now. So much so, that I’ve thought about what I think will help me (and maybe you) to not just keep my sanity this year, but to be healthy in my body, mind and soul. Because what’s the point in all the hustle and bustle if I still have that unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach?

 

  • Take a minute

I know that it might be easier said than done, but taking time-out is as important for your productivity as it is for your health. Imagine being in a flat spin all the time but you’re actually not even really covering any ground. If it feels like I’m getting overwhelmed by the daily run of the mill, I will do my best to take time out. Note: I have not yet mastered this and maybe never will. But #issaworkinprogress

 

  • Don’t bite off more than you can chew, girl

Again, my brain came up with a gazillion defences as I typed that line, but we lose sight of the very things that keep us grounded. This year I am attempting to complete 3 subjects part-time, while still working full-time, blogging and making a conscious effort to write my own music. Let’s not forget that I am actively involved in my church and I keep our little home neat and tidy (with the help of the husband). I’ve also decided to make time to look after my physical fitness. I don’t necessarily wanna lose weight or keep weight off, but I wanna feel healthy in my body. That means cardio exercise at some point during the week. I’m settling for 1-2 sessions per week. I’m not planning on stressing myself out about not doing it more.

 

  • Wake up to watch the sunrise or go and wait for the sunset

There is something so soothing and calming about watching a sunrise/sunset. It’s filled with hope of new opportunities, another chance to become better than I was before, another hectic day gone by where I actually did my absolute best – regardless of how I might be feeling about it.

We went to watch the sunrise at Sardinia Bay on the last day of 2017. In those moments prior to the sun sticking its head out from behind the clouds, I reflected on the year that had passed. All my fails and all my wins. And I had peace, knowing that through all of it, I was never alone in any of those high or low moments.

 

  • No Drama Lama

How exhausting is drama even? Like, I’m feeling tired in my soul just thinking about it.Sometimes I unconsciously get tangled up in things that has nothing to do with me. I’ve made the decision to avoid ALL appearances of evil. So pardon me if I stop you mid-sentence if the conversation is headed in a “dramatic” direction. Ek is moeg vir dinge. Who even likes things anymore?

 

  • Trust God more

Yes, I say that I do and I really do trust Him. But my controlling, independent human nature often gets in the way of letting God do His thing. As much as He knows every hair on my head, my love needs to reach beyond just saying that I trust Him while still trying to fix myself. It needs to be trusting Him with the totality of who I am. He’s got this and I can have peace. In whatever tumultuous situation I am in, He’s right there in the boat with me. Cradling me to make sure I don’t fall over the edge or stub my toe. And while I lean my head against His chest, I realise that I am enough. I am so much more than enough.

 

You’re probably thinking that I am being overly ambitious or that these things are too basic to get you to your next level. But that’s the thing about our humanness. Our hearts and needs are completely different from each other. And although my commitments might not settle in between the crevices of your heart, maybe it sparks a desire in you for more than just a chasing after the wind.

What’s your “self-commitments” for the year ahead?

9 Comments

  • A beautiful, reflective yet thought-provoking read Deens. 🙏

  • Wow Deenah great reading this & so authentic to your voice too. You are officially my ousis 🙂 Proud moments & so cool to be even be able to do life with people who think this way. Let the rest of commitments & blogging in 2018 continue to unravel the mysteries we so many times lose heart about. Thank you and yes I did make mental notes I am that person with the hand I receive 🙂

  • Read this morning before work, it was indeed just what I needed to hear 😊

  • Wow! Well said… you are a warrior princess, I envy your spirit, zest and enthusiasm!

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